L.....yessss....L

The L has never been so close to my garage ever.

I am actively searching for my own speed demon. A Ford SVT, yeap, that is right a Lightning will be my Christmas present.

Common' Santa, hurry!

I want a Black one, but I won't be to picky.


Santa, I hope that you get this letter soon, I mean SOON!

Not working can be so.....

I am not working at the moment. I go back to work in a few days. So I have been sooooo lazy.

Well at least I kind of cleaned up my website a bit and updated some info. Now if I could find the energy to post new stuff. :)

Other than that, I did totally nothing today. Fell asleep sitting!!! lol ...how sad! lol

I am watching the NYY vs LAA and why is it tied ? Bottom of the 9th and The innings are just flying with outs. SO is the time. I want to watch my damn show at 8:00 PM. I don't see that taking place. Damn it!

3 2 1 no camera now!!! :(

Yes, just like it sounds.

There were 3, then 2 then finally one, but now there are ZERO! grrr!

One was film, so that just had to be eliminated, specially since I had two other digital ones.

So now we are at....TWO. So I got my point and shoot and my D-SLR (both Canon).

I decided to take both of my cameras on my little vacation.

The trip is doing great and pics are rolling in. No issues and batteries and all just performing as needed.

So here goes the list of things starting to go sour for them.

While on the Maid of the Mist boat, I drop my D-SLR after thinking that it is on my neck strap around my neck. I just let it slide out of my hands thinking that it's safe. At the same time I feel no pressure on my neck and next it's a painful to watch collision course at full speed to the steel deck of the boat. OUCH!!!! All I can do is to scream and say...FUCK!  But it did survived the water from the falls and the actual fall from my hands. Along all this I changed lenses a few times and it was windy and I should have known better. After getting back to the hotel and  I start to get ready for the New York City leg of the trip and I noticed tons of specs on the test photos that I am taking before the next trip. I tried to clean it but I managed to make it worst and trust me that I did make it even worst after it was bad. Well at least that can go to the shop and get fixed for cheap. But I missed on tons of pics. I learned my lesson about switching lenses outdoors. Next time will be simple. Two Bodies, Two good lenses and I am done!

Then while in Boston and deciding to leave my D-SLR at the hotel room, since it is raining like crazy. I just take my P and S Canon and since it fits in my pocket, it is all heaven. Pics here, pics there and over there and on and on. So I am almost done with the city and on my way to the car, we stop at one last store. My friend goes in and I just stay outside and decide to seat on a bench and I did. Camera in the back pocket was not happy. DEAD! cracked screen. Totally useless now.

Well,

Now I have a great excuse for a new digi-cam.

Right here too

Well I will tell you that I love driving. I just came back from a trip across several states from the South to the North East of the U.S.A. and it was amazing to see all the things that this country has to offer.

Why do we even bother to go to other countries? Seriously. We have so much here that looks or it is even better than what other places have. I know that we have no Eiffel Tower or Mount Everest, but we have Lady Liberty in New York City, N.Y. and Mt. McKinley in Alaska that tops 20,320 feet. Don't want to go to Alaska? Well, then go to California and see Mt. Whitney that climbs to 14,494 feet.
How about food? How about art? How about Beaches and so much more. I can go on and on with places to be right here, right on this soil and if you feel like traveling out of the mainland, there are many options and you can still be on U.S. soil. Hawaii, U.S.V.I., Puerto Rico, Alaska and many more.

So no excuses!!!


For example:

Oldest continuously inhabited European established settlement in the continental United States is Saint Augustine in Florida and it is only preceded by Puerto Rican colonies and Pensacola, Florida, which was destroyed in 1559, and Fort Caroline, destroyed in 1565.

Back in reality....again.

Well,

The trip of a lifetime it's officially over. :(

Why and how I ended up in a trip to almost Canada and back? Well, simple after been laid off twice from the same job and re-dumped (yes your read right, re-dumped by the ex) I decided that I have to just clear my head and what a better way than a road trip.

So I texted a friend and asked her a few random questions and the next thing that I know is that we are both on a car driving towards the Niagara Falls. Sweet Jesus, am I crazy or something? I am not sure, but oh well, too late now.

Awesome time in Niagara Falls, Boston, Providence, Milford, New York and Philadelphia among other places. 
I managed to add a little over 4200 miles to the car in a week and that translate onto a lot of what I call ASS MILES for all the sitting time that I added to my butt.

Well now I am back home and really sad that it is all back to reality and that sucks.

Had the time of my life with someone that I never imagined I would. I was just looking at some of the photos and I will tell you that I only wished that it was a never ending trip. It was a great time of unscripted life at its best.

Thanks friend for putting up with me and such an amazing time.

Love Bugs.

In my opinion the love bugs are the best example of a love, hate relationship.

I hate them after winter and love them after summer.

I'm so looking forward to our mild winter.

Benn.

...then it was all over anyways!

..there is no easy way.

I got my ups and and my huge DOWNS too. I see the light but then again the darkness can take over so easily.

I thought that I had done a good job on letting go till today that I felt so bad and humiliated by my ex and it just exposed me to my own demise in love.

I did realized that when we (in this case I refer to me, but meaning people in general) say that we moved on or we say "I want you back" or "we belong together" type of comments, they are the most selfish things that we can say or do. Simply put, it is just putting us first and the other party second. It should not be like that. No matter what or who took the step to make you be in that situation.

I just simply had to let go and let go and let go until at one point I felt like I really did.
As I told my ex, "I have not more rope to hold on to" "I am sorry for holding on to you and not letting go of you for so long".

I really wish that I could hang on to that fine weak rope forever and never ever let go. But I just realized that I was simply hurting myself more and more every day that I kept holding onto it.

As I took all the strength that I had left and gave it one last hug and kiss and simply realized that it was time to let it fly away. To a point I felt relieved and at the same time really sad and broken.

It has been a year and if she was not back by now, I don't think that she would have ever come back. Even after many talks of I love you and I miss you from both parties.

I am sure that she misses me and loves me too, but not in that way that held us together for so long in the past.

I will simply keep all of my great memories and the gifts that she left behind in my heart and soul, including my 2 beautiful children and cherish them forever as proof of the love that I once had and how now we still have, but at a different level.

I don't think that I will ever ever stop loving her. But we simply have to learn to love in a different way. With tears in my eyes I move forward and a day at a time. I knowing that even tho' after many mistakes, at the end I gave it my all.

I am sorry of I bored you with this huge message. But somehow I just did...lol...

I don't know of what is that you are going through, but I can only hope that maybe there is something that I say, it can help you at least just that little bit, to allow you to move forward and be able to let go a little more every day.

Peace.


Bennie

CNSNews.com - CIA Confirms: Waterboarding 9/11 Mastermind Led to Info that Aborted 9/11-Style Attack on Los Angeles

CNSNews.com - CIA Confirms: Waterboarding 9/11 Mastermind Led to Info that Aborted 9/11-Style Attack on Los Angeles

Monday

OMG......another week and the Summer is almost here.

What are your plans?

It get's even worst...Now as bad as the old USSR...on the way out

But Obama is outpacing even Gorbachev. After just three months in power.

Read this:


WASHINGTON (AP) - President Barack Obama has gone abroad and gored an ox—the deeply held belief that the United States does not make mistakes in dealings with either friends or foes.
And in the process, he's taking a huge gamble both at home and abroad, for a payoff that could be a long time coming, if ever.
By way of explanation, senior adviser David Axelrod describes the president's tactics this way:

"You plant, you cultivate, you harvest. Over time, the seeds that were planted here are going to be very, very valuable."
While historic analogies are never perfect, Obama's stark efforts to change the U.S. image abroad are reminiscent of the stunning realignments sought by former Soviet leader Michael Gorbachev. During his short—by Soviet standards—tenure, he scrambled incessantly to shed the ideological entanglements that were leading the communist empire toward ruin.
But Obama is outpacing even Gorbachev. After just three months in power, the new American leader has, among many other things:
—Admitted to Europeans that America deserves at least part of the blame for the world's financial crisis because it did not regulate high-flying and greedy Wall Street gamblers.
—Told the Russians he wants to reset relations that fell to Cold War-style levels under his predecessor, George W. Bush.
—Asked NATO for more help in the fight in Afghanistan, and, not getting much, did not castigate alliance partners.
—Lifted some restrictions on Cuban Americans' travel to their communist homeland and eased rules on sending wages back to families there.
—Shook hands with, more than once, and accepted a book from Hugo Chavez, the virulently anti-American leader of oil-rich Venezuela.
—Said America's appetite for illegal drugs and its lax control of the flow of guns and cash to Mexico were partly to blame for the drug-lord-inspired violence that is rattling the southern U.S. neighbor.
At a news conference ending the three-day Summit of the Americas on Sunday, Obama was asked to explain what a reporter called this emerging "Obama Doctrine."
He said that first, he remains intent on telling the world that the United States is a powerful and wealthy nation that realizes it is just one country among many. Obama said he believes that other countries have "good ideas" and interests that cannot be ignored.
Second, while the United States best represents itself by living up to its universal values and ideas, Obama said it must also respect the variety of cultures and perspectives that guide both American foes and friends.
"I firmly believe that if we're willing to break free from the arguments and ideologies of an earlier era and continue to act, as we have at this summit, with a sense of mutual responsibility and mutual respect and mutual interest, then each of our nations can come out of this challenging period stronger and more prosperous, and we can advance opportunity, equality, and security across the Americas," the president said.
Critics, especially those deeply attached to the foreign policy course of the past 50-plus years, see a president whose lofty ideals expose the country to a dangerous probing of U.S. weakness, of an unseemly readiness to admit past mistakes, of a willingness to talk with unpleasant opponents.
"I think it was irresponsible for the president to be seen kind of laughing and joking with Hugo Chavez," said Sen. John Ensign, a Nevada Republican. "This is a person along the lines with Fidel Castro and the types of dictatorship that he has down there in Venezuela and the anti-Americanism that he has been spreading around the world is not somebody the president of the United States should be seen as having, you know, kind of friendly relations with."
At his news conference Obama said he didn't think he did much damage to U.S. security or interests by shaking the hand of Chavez, whose country has a defense budget about one-six hundredth the size of the United States, and depends upon it's oil reserves for solvency.
But beyond specific attacks on his new foreign policy are the deeper philosophical challenges emerging from the still powerful, if diminished, conservative political structure in the United States. Such opponents can play havoc with Obama's attempts to change domestic policy and will work to weaken his 60-plus percent approval among Americans.
Obama brushes that aside:
"One of the benefits of my campaign and how I've been trying to operate as president is I don't worry about the politics—I try to figure out what's right in terms of American interests, and on this one I think I'm right."
So thought Gorbachev. But being right is not always politically healthy.
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Steven R. Hurst reports from the White House for the AP and has covered foreign affairs for 30 years. Copyright 2009 The Associated Press. All rights reserved. This material may not be published, broadcast, rewritten or redistributed.

DRUDGE REPORT 2009®

DRUDGE REPORT 2009®

The World vs. Obama

http://www.bloomberg.com/apps/news?pid=newsarchive&sid=aun_fNO0161g

Obama and the World today

You want to be friends with them? Here you go. Get ready because the slapping has just began! Here is for CHANGE!Amazing how Obama is loving with Chavez, Ortega, Castro, who is next? Ahmadinejad , Russia's Medvedev and N-Korea's Jong-Il I am telling you that he should give Alaska to Russia and Florida to Cuba. California to Mexico and Texas to Iran so they can be in charge BIG time.
I almost foget to mention....New York to the Arab countries and all the great lakes states to Canada. Best of all....Hawaii to Japan.
That will show the world that the U.S.A means change straight from the heart. It will only piss all of us here off. But the World should be a more happy place.